Excluded

Today, after returning from a week long visit to the parents house I came home. Unfortunately it seems that very little has changed in my absence re: the dishes. But let bygones be bygones! I thought it'd be nice to have a little list of my roommates here (considering there are 6 of us!). In order to keep the anonymity I haven't used any real names.

The Lazy Roommate (TLR): Previously my best friend from university. I say previously because she attempted to befriend someone else last year and, in the process, began to completely shut me out hurting my feelings and inevitably leading me to completely ignore her (mature, I know). However, she failed to see that anything she'd done was wrong and that I was just being weird because of something else. So far, I'm not even sure if she considers me her best friend any more. I suppose you could say I've had that whole glass shattering of the illusion when it comes to her. She's a very fundamentally selfish person and relies on having a large group of friends to make her feel good about herself. I'm just not sure if I can be best mates with someone like that (however rude of me that may seem). Regardless, I try to stay on the bright side of things but I feel I'm always been let down by her behaviour.

The Fitness Freak (FF): is just that! A fitness nut who wakes up at 5.30 every morning in order to go for a run. She also loves to go clubbing at least twice a week and has a financial accountant as a boyfriend who spend just about every waking minute (and every night) at our house. I don't really mind this; he's a really nice guy, very easy to get along with!

Daniel: He is without a doubt one of the nicest people I have ever met. He'll politely ask if you need any washing thrown in for a load, send you flowers on your birthday...I'm only scraping the surface here because I can't think of a good example! Plain and simple, this guy will bend over backwards simply to make other people smile (I mean that in a strictly non-sexual sense, no matter how dirty the sentence sounds!). That said, this can be a downside as he's completely non-confrontational and TLR usually abuses his giving nature to make her life a little easier.

Spike: Somewhat of a recluse. Very shy, very odd sense of humour...he often doesn't get the jokes you make (or even worse thinks you're being serious when you say "Damn I'm cold" and it's 35C outside or make any sort of blatantly sarcastic comment). He's such a lovable fool though...and I mean that in the best sense of the word "fool".

 Leah: Headstrong and independent. Leah is not one to sit back and take any shit from anybody! She's brutally honest, which can be both a positive and negative thing. Positive because it gets any issues out in the open so they can be dealt with. Negative because sometimes her being blunt exacerbates the situation.


And onto today's escapades!
Anywho, towards the late morning TLR and the fitness freak left the house. Now, I'll briefly mention how those things usually work. My room is quite close to the front door and in order to get out of the house you have to walk past my (usually) open door. It's been a common courtesy of everyone to say "bye" or "I'm going _____, see you later" as you leave the house. Although so far, this hasn't been what TLR does. She just walks out without a word behind her.

Today was no different. The two walked out without a word returning around 4.30 in the afternoon with a myriad of shopping bags behind them. This left me a little hurt...for one, I wasn't invited or even considered to join them. The fact that I've been away for a week meant that I've been keen to spend time with my roommates and to be so blatantly ignored (intentionally or otherwise) was quite hurtful. I confronted TLR when they got home:
Me: Hey, how come I wasn't invited along?
TLR: Er...we planned it on Wednesday but didn't end up going then so we went today!

I'm not sure if she thought that I said something else, but I'm fairly certain it was quite audible. Although "we planned it earlier" is without a doubt the most pathetic excuse I've heard for a while....I mean even I can think up better things than that. Even a "Sorry! Totally forgot you were even home!" would've been better. Yet here I sit, without an apology and feeling excluded by the very people I live with. Currently I'm tossing up whether or not to confront them about it. Nothing mean (although believe me, petty behaviour has crept into my mind as a possibility!) just explaining something along the lines of:

"Hey, I just wanted to say that I felt quite left out today when you didn't think to invite me shopping. Whether it was just that you didn't think of me or, God forbid, didn't want me along I just wanted to let you know that it made me feel quite excluded..."

Man, typing that out now it just sounds so...guilt-trippy. Although I suppose that's what I'm after; the actual recognition of someone else's feelings by TLR.

My one regret is bringing in her washing today and folding it all neatly for her. A thankless task which has gone all but unnoticed. I suppose the laundry fairies are hard at work again!

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